We have 10 weeks left and I am wildly unprepared in some ways. When I was pregnant with Eli I'm pretty sure by now I had his nursery done, extra meals frozen, diapers stockpiled, and the house spick and span. We have a baby sprinkle in 4 weeks so I'm leaving some of the nursery until then, but really I'm just taking a break. I haven't even registered at the hospital yet. Eli takes up a lot of my energy and just when I get the couch shampooed he "helps" me "clean" by pouring milk all over it and rubbing it around. I'm not mad, but I'm not about to scrub the floors either knowing a) the baby will not be on the floor for a bit and b) it's going to get messy in 2.7 seconds. I do clean and clean and clean, but it's neverending. I also packed my hospital bag and Eli's overnight bag just in case. I freaked out a little the other day thinking my water was about to break because seriously I felt just like I did when my water broke with Eli. In other terms of nesting, I pushed for a new car, which Josh graciously gave into.
We had quite a bit of problems with the Dodge, which is not ideal because we just paid it off earlier this year. Anyhow, it was a gas-guzzling, service needing, hard to put Eli into car. Josh has been driving the Kia to work because it gets 35mpg and the Dodge was getting maybe 10mpg in the city so I was stuck with, in my mind, a time bomb. The car was in the shop or threw a code about once every 6 weeks and I could just imagine driving Eli and Anias to pick up groceries and having it stop shifting, like it liked to do. So- we bought a Mitsubishi Outlander GT S-AWC. I absolutely love it. It gets awesome gas mileage and had most of my must-have's. I did postpone putting in the DVD system, since Anias won't be forward facing for a few years and Eli has an iPad holder that attaches to the headrest. Still, it is small enough to not feel like I'm climbing Mt Everest on the daily and big enough to fit 7 people. The best part? It has a 10 year bumper to bumper (not just powertrain) warranty. With our recent history of lemons that was the deal maker. I do feel bad throwing more debt on our family since we were getting so close to being debt free, but I still think it was a good decision.
I've been kind of grouchy lately, and I don't know if it's hormonal, or if I'm just bummed that I'm 30 now (okay, I am in two days). I've always been really excited to get older, but lately I've been thinking what have I really done with my life? I guess I envisioned my 30 year old self as someone I'm not. Someone who works out and gets her hair done more than twice a year. Someone who buys eye cream and makeup you can't get at Kroger. Someone whose clothes actually fit and are in style. It's all very surface level when I think about it, but when you're cleaning up your son's potty training accidents and managing a meltdown over giving into his requests (example: I want a granola bar! Ok- here you go. "No no granola bar!"), it can feel fruitless. I'm just kind of a mess let's be honest.
Then again, I get to see Eli's hilarious daily realizations and in those moments I think to myself, this is what I live for. Work will always be there, but my kids will only be kids for a little while and I am blessed. I know I won't look back on my life and wish I had been more of a Stepford wife or wish that I had more years logged in the ole workforce. I just have to be purposefully mindful of the goodness of this life. I'm exhausted sometimes, but I'm thankful that I get to sleep 10 hours a day. I sometimes feel like my mind is being wasted, but I'm thankful that it's being filled with memories.
Anyhow, we're headed to Memphis to celebrate the big 3-0! BBQ, duck parades at the Peabody, a day at the zoo with hippos. I think it's going to be good.
Anias: Week 30
Baby’s size: Cantaloupe
Symptoms: Actually, I think the nausea is letting up! I've only been super nauseated once this past week, avoiding spicy food, garlic, tomato sauce, and too much sugar is paying off. I've also been much luckier this time around with charlie horses! AND I passed my glucose test woot woot. My hips hurt, but overall I'm doing good.
Cravings: root beer, pickles, and Cheetos
Other things: Eli gives me kisses every day and pats me to make sure I'm warm. He keeps leaving the room saying he's going to go see baby, and he tried to feed me cereal through mom's belly. I love to kick especially when Eli is laying on mom's belly.
Eli:
I make friends easy and am so kind to other kiddos, but I don't yet understand why other kids don't get my fascination with vacuums. I have become obsessed with cars, tractors, and dinosaurs and will sneak out of my bed at night to find a truck to play with. Sometimes I miss out on activities because I refuse to get dressed. Unknown noises scare me and I make mom put her hand behind my back to make me feel better. I know what a rectangle is (I identified a granola bar's shape) and I like to pretend I'm in 'The Good Dinosaur' by telling mom "I lost the river!"
We had quite a bit of problems with the Dodge, which is not ideal because we just paid it off earlier this year. Anyhow, it was a gas-guzzling, service needing, hard to put Eli into car. Josh has been driving the Kia to work because it gets 35mpg and the Dodge was getting maybe 10mpg in the city so I was stuck with, in my mind, a time bomb. The car was in the shop or threw a code about once every 6 weeks and I could just imagine driving Eli and Anias to pick up groceries and having it stop shifting, like it liked to do. So- we bought a Mitsubishi Outlander GT S-AWC. I absolutely love it. It gets awesome gas mileage and had most of my must-have's. I did postpone putting in the DVD system, since Anias won't be forward facing for a few years and Eli has an iPad holder that attaches to the headrest. Still, it is small enough to not feel like I'm climbing Mt Everest on the daily and big enough to fit 7 people. The best part? It has a 10 year bumper to bumper (not just powertrain) warranty. With our recent history of lemons that was the deal maker. I do feel bad throwing more debt on our family since we were getting so close to being debt free, but I still think it was a good decision.
I've been kind of grouchy lately, and I don't know if it's hormonal, or if I'm just bummed that I'm 30 now (okay, I am in two days). I've always been really excited to get older, but lately I've been thinking what have I really done with my life? I guess I envisioned my 30 year old self as someone I'm not. Someone who works out and gets her hair done more than twice a year. Someone who buys eye cream and makeup you can't get at Kroger. Someone whose clothes actually fit and are in style. It's all very surface level when I think about it, but when you're cleaning up your son's potty training accidents and managing a meltdown over giving into his requests (example: I want a granola bar! Ok- here you go. "No no granola bar!"), it can feel fruitless. I'm just kind of a mess let's be honest.
Then again, I get to see Eli's hilarious daily realizations and in those moments I think to myself, this is what I live for. Work will always be there, but my kids will only be kids for a little while and I am blessed. I know I won't look back on my life and wish I had been more of a Stepford wife or wish that I had more years logged in the ole workforce. I just have to be purposefully mindful of the goodness of this life. I'm exhausted sometimes, but I'm thankful that I get to sleep 10 hours a day. I sometimes feel like my mind is being wasted, but I'm thankful that it's being filled with memories.
Anyhow, we're headed to Memphis to celebrate the big 3-0! BBQ, duck parades at the Peabody, a day at the zoo with hippos. I think it's going to be good.
Anias: Week 30
Baby’s size: Cantaloupe
Symptoms: Actually, I think the nausea is letting up! I've only been super nauseated once this past week, avoiding spicy food, garlic, tomato sauce, and too much sugar is paying off. I've also been much luckier this time around with charlie horses! AND I passed my glucose test woot woot. My hips hurt, but overall I'm doing good.
Cravings: root beer, pickles, and Cheetos
Other things: Eli gives me kisses every day and pats me to make sure I'm warm. He keeps leaving the room saying he's going to go see baby, and he tried to feed me cereal through mom's belly. I love to kick especially when Eli is laying on mom's belly.
Eli:
Eli wanted me to take pictures of him; he liked this picture of his foot haha
Eli after telling me "Sweet dog! Jesus loves him"
I make friends easy and am so kind to other kiddos, but I don't yet understand why other kids don't get my fascination with vacuums. I have become obsessed with cars, tractors, and dinosaurs and will sneak out of my bed at night to find a truck to play with. Sometimes I miss out on activities because I refuse to get dressed. Unknown noises scare me and I make mom put her hand behind my back to make me feel better. I know what a rectangle is (I identified a granola bar's shape) and I like to pretend I'm in 'The Good Dinosaur' by telling mom "I lost the river!"
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