Party On

We had our first meeting with Fearless Moms in Hendersonville last week, and at the end of the group they asked us to discuss some challenges that we're facing in motherhood right now. Most of the group discussed having trouble feeling burnt out, unsupported, or as though their husbands were not much more than glorified roommates. I get it. I am totally in survival mode. I'm exhausted. I parent both kids alone from 6am-5pm then cook dinner and start getting Eli ready for bed. We usually start the bedtime process at 6 and finish putting them to bed at 8:30. Sometimes I rush to get errands done or go to the gym from 6-7. After that I usually do some work for the business, clean, and go to bed. Anias was waking up 3-4 times after midnight, but at the recommendation of our doctor we moved him to his crib so he could sleep better. Instead, he started rolling over and we had to stop swaddling him so he's really been struggling and wakes up every 20 minutes or so for hours unt...

We celebrated Eli's third birthday this past week, and for two days I had a 3 month old and a 3 year old, which is such sweetness, but they are handfuls. Since we got home from Wyoming Eli hasn't wanted to go out of the house even to go to the park or to get his hair cut (which he loves) and Anias' schedule is so off if I shower he is awake and crying the entire time while Eli is doing who knows what, so I'm learning as we go. Eli has started talking to a make believe friend, Mystery. It kind of freaks me out to be honest. He'll blame things on Mystery (throwing things off of the loft) or say Mystery wants a certain food. He also says Mystery scares him around bed time, which is probably just him trying to stay up but still. I just read last week that this is normal behavior, but it makes me sad that he doesn't have anyone to play with. He does hold his brother or give him toys about 5 minutes a day and I play with him as much as possible, but a good part of m...

I've been putting myself out there lately and it's been hard!  I've been wanting to do more couples shoots since I've been getting inquiries with no bites, but I am mostly comfortable being a kid photographer. So I decided to push myself and  wrangled my sister and her husband into modeling for me. I asked a few forums for advice in making an ad for Valentine's Day and they all said raise those prices!  This is so incredibly hard for me.  I try to be confident, but I am a perfectionist who is hypercritical of myself and my work. I don't want to lose my old clients and I don't want people to think I am proud either. I guess I still feel like an impostor sometimes regardless of how many classes I've taken and how much work I've put into learning my art. To be fair, I sort of felt like an imposter as a therapist too regardless of the change I've seen happen and the people who have told me flat out I helped change their life. Maybe that feeling just ...